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2007-07-18T00:11:00.000-07:00

im here, im back.
im still tired but i have no rest& can afford none
anywae,

had moved to livejournal.
&strictly friends only.
'cos i prefer simple not interfered life.

2007-07-10T21:26:00.001-07:00

我累了.

2007-07-08T06:49:00.000-07:00

o8july2oo7
sunday.
overjoyed.

todae is thy dae.
met up with lilin.chuanmei& fen for lunch.
&the shaver which xiaofen didnt bring afterall.
owell, its worth going still(:
ate kfc, kopitam was too packed.
my chicken thigh& drumstick tempted xiaofen& chuanmei and lilin.
so they bought three in the end too:D
left for the washroom& flooded lilin& chuanmei's hphones with photographs.

september babies:D

she's out to kill.

i never did liked that red arrow.

our friendship are filled with emotions.

one proud& one cute but all nice.

definition of true friendships.

here's our evidences kae((:

enjoy.

2007-07-07T21:03:00.000-07:00

when a phone call changes something as drastic,
that's when i knew, past can only be found diaries& memories.
&nv in my life nomore.
words does hurts the most.
mouth& characters are just accomplices.
how much have i realised that aches my heart for the past twentyfour hrs,
makes me bloodythirsty.
i hunger for a betrayer's bitter blood.
&a trio that alliances to live for their very own selfcenteredness.
tell me, my friends.
i have changed so much.
i can no longer cling on to meaningful& meaningless past of mine.
&i will.
i can pull my grip out of yours with a jeer on my face and just look at your terrors drowning you.
im the most beautiful then, i guess.
&you will just be that gruesome to appear infront of me.

tell me whats friends, bloody trio.
for we all bloodthirst dont we?
you're thirsty, so you hurt us.
im thirsty 'cos you hurt us.
oh how wonderful my world will be filled with your failures upon me.
im quenched then.

noone has any idea.
a insane has no laws against crime beside that four white walls.

2007-07-04T05:56:00.000-07:00

'cos i had a bad day
im taking one down
i sang a sad song just to turn it around
i say you don't know
you tell me don't lie
i worked at a smile(: and go for a ride
i had a bad day.

give me a break.
i just want to stuff myself with donuts& sleep through two weeks of thursdaes.
'cosyatoldmesomethingineverwantedtoknow.

2007-06-30T23:27:00.000-07:00

31o62oo7
saturdae
haughty:D

watched another episode of survivor cook island just now.
so nice.
cnt blame people from getting that survivor addiction.
went marina square for the ndp tickets.
papa has been urging for that two tickets for the whole week.
&ma lazybones made me drag till todae bfore being kicked out of my hse, heading for MS.
so mean):
ahaha.
reached MS, searching for the tickets' collection booth like one dumb headless fly.
went up to the three level thinking it was the second.
read the road directory to realised that im one level too high.
went down the escalator again& decided the wise wae is to follow all roadsigns.
followed the arrows leading towards suntec convection center.
got kind of lost again, walking in circles& got drew towards this icecream booth.
but sad to realised, i only have two pathetic bucks with me):
argh. continued in search of that booth for bout another ten mins..
finally gave up, wanting to called kelly 'cos recalling her going to ndp 2oo6.
but just as i flip open my phone, i turned to my left& saw this big white board "wall" with bright coloured prints of ndp 2oo7 @ marina bay.
&i saw thirty over redshirt-ed guys standing around doing nothing.
too shocked to know that there is no long queues.
too shocked to know that the booth is soooo big.
however,
i've got the ndp tickets!
so proud so proud:D
im so happy that im so lucky for once.
&im back home with my lunch and bed and ma boy:D
home sweet home.
my spore is including too kae(:

2007-06-29T03:00:00.000-07:00

2oo7.29june
fridae
overwhelmed.

just came back from school.
god, its fridae. another wk has gone.
poly's life is really quick.

so damn tired. tabuleh tahan.
eyelids weigh a hundred pound per side.
killing me just to keep 'em open):
'cos woke up at three am this morning but cnt get back to slp.
god, heeeelp.
journey back is sooo much worse than journey there.
came back with claudia, train is crowded as usual):
thus, no seats.
missed one double deck seventy& got on that single deck seventysix with no choice.
&seriously, i loathe adidas deodourant. i really do.
im not being sensitive, neither am i paranoid.
but
colognes, perfumes& deodourants really does make my head& stomach spin.
fuck. thus, my carsickness worsen)):
one fat guy wore adidas deodourant sat bhind me.
one thin indian NCC guy wore adidas deodourant sat infront of me.
fuckfuckfuck.
stinkstinkstink.
godiegodiegodie.

btw,
what happens when two guys& two girls dominates the backseats of a single deck seventysix?
ans: loads of annoying witchy bitchy laughters once again pollutes this poor suffering Earth please.
owell. its raining right now.
soothes me down soso much((:
even mother nature sides me.

santa, thats my only wish this year.

2007-06-22T17:01:00.000-07:00

santa can you hear me?
i have been so good this year.
&all i want is one thing, tell me my true love is near.
he's all i want, just for me.
underneath my christmas tree.
i'll be waiting here.
santa, that's my only wish this year...

&as i struggled through my presentation with ma teammates,
in that dimmed dark room of blasting speakers& five white tables,
this song accompanied me throughout the rest of my tiring fridae noon till dusk((:
im starting to love my class.
loving my classmates, loving those crazy things oop-ing up my lunchbreak.
loving W16A. for they are mad people, just like me.

santa, thats my only wish this year(:

2007-06-20T04:19:00.000-07:00

live for yourself.
'cos only when you are alive, will then other see you for who you are.

realised a horrible truth todae.
in eight wks time, im changing class.
means, new classmates. more adapting. more mentally struggling. more lone ranger-ness.
ofuck fuck fuck.
with hell to "a whole new start".
with hell to socializing.
with hell to RP's schemes.
i loathe RP ever so much.

what i give to have my wishes coming true...

2007-06-19T03:05:00.000-07:00

19june.2oo7
tuesdae.
horrible.

second dae of sch reopen, first dae of this month's menses.
&well... its horrible.
the aircon is wae to cold for me. every single part of me.
my Mcramps is too much for me to bare.
UT only added to the problem since i have to type& try to stop my cramps' pain at the same time.
minutes counting down to UT ends isnt good either.
i hate red& numbers& aircon so much then, i swear.
but now its okae:D
that pink panadols are miracle, are my survior.
god, how i loooove pink panadols& hot milo.
friends are sweet todae((:
one got me hot milo, one got me those pills& two stopped me from overdosing myself.
so yea. exclusion of horrible tummy-stabbing Mcramps, todae is not bad.
but Mcramps sucks still.

thanku pinky and mr.milo:D
im back home safely now.

2007-06-15T23:15:00.000-07:00

fifteenJUNE.2oo7
fridae.
funlaughtercrap&joy.

second kbox for the wk& still fun.
lilin& xiaofen sang so well, their voices are nice:D
they pressurize for my first song alone):
&i sang bad but haha, fun.
we did dramatic craps& craps of all sorts inside room k2.
lilin cnt suck jellies out of her second cup of green apple due to a bendy straw.
LOL.
sunburn is still healing. no more pain, YAY.
face finished peeling by wednesday& back is finishing soon(i guess).
shoulders only started peeling since ytd morning, looks ogodly horrible.
ew-ly larh)): im a shedding snake, says everyone.
despite having a no-reason-why passion for snakes, i still dont want to be one.
especially the shedding part.
oman.

OH i forgot, received a call on mame's bdae.
its from NDP &i have got two tickets to NDP2oo7 on august nine.
YAYYAYYAY.
although its only two tickets but i've decided that they are for mame& papa.
'cos they have never watched one NDPlive bfore but i do.
im glad, they are going:D
school's reopening in three daes time.
horrible reality waving to me. arh)):

2007-06-10T06:27:00.000-07:00

10062007
sunday
awesome((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAE MAME!
THANKS FOR ALL THOSE LOVES THAT YOU GAVE ME ALL THESE YEARS.
THANK YOU FOR WASTING SEVENTEEN YEARS ON ME TOO.
I LOOOVE YOU SO MUCH LARH AHBOOOOO:D

went to Prima Revolving Resturant todae with ma loves.
as said, the resturant is revolving!
i saw vivo city and all those highrise buildings in CBDareas.
nice night view.
mame&papa married here twenty years ago leh. how romantic:D
the food is okaely nice(cos its expensive)
LaughOutLoud.

oh& jiejie hint mame after dining,
"mame, what if i going overseas but dont have visa?"
i replied(in indian accent),"then you can only buy one bird."
*as taken from the visa card adverstiment.
and we all cramped our tummies from laughing.
hahahaha.

todae's dinner is fabulous though my face is peeling& my shoulders and back is still hurting.
i dont look drunk, i look horrible. like a shedding skin snake)):
&ma loves are fabulous still:D

2007-06-08T06:05:00.000-07:00

seven.o62oo7
thursdae.
funfunfun.

its class outing dae.
twentyfour down to sixteen came):
six girls& the rest guys.
it isnt fun at first. maybe bcos im easily forgotten(like alwaes).
but its okae(:
yeeling and i went into the sea after a long period of meaningless chitchat on shore& i starts to itch.
i thot sea might help. but apparently not.
some guys join in& we started a game of water monkey.

bathing felt so shiok against my sunburn.
lunch tasted plain. think i drank too much seawater.
ew.
kboxed after lunch at cineleisure with chan.ryan.eunice& eileen.
half freezing, half itching.
my oncewet towel "jacket" turned dry frm the aircon larh.
left early at nine plus thinking it was ten.
rushrushrush to realise that im early in fact.
board the wrong train and ended up in orchard station instead):
got puzzled, must be a habit from all the left platform train rides to RP.
while waiting for the right train, thy reflection shows how red im.
oman.

o8o62oo7
fridae.
OUCH.

sunburn worsen so much todae.
(ouch)
i hope to go shirtless but cnt.
(ouch)
my shoulders& back hurts so much, my movements slowed.
(ouch)
i took ten secs to get out of potato couching with infinites ah arh ouch pain.
(ouchouchouch)
face have this red line across my cheek to my nose to another cheek.
i look drunk.
(OUCH)
voice changed too, perhaps from kbox perhaps from sunburn.
oman.
i look horrible. ouch.
ouchouchouchouchouch.
todae is flooded with my ouch-es.

2007-06-05T01:09:00.000-07:00

hey babe. hey my innocent pri sch sunshine.
this entry is just for you.
my tiny sunshine bitch. hows your blessful life?
aw com'on dont you cry, have got to be strong.
your crying gave me the urge to slap.
perhaps is the fakeness. or perhaps its just the end of my limits.
oops.

when my phone rings and the caller ID writes you, i know that im needed.
when my phone doesnt rings, i realised what naive bitch im too.
your phone bills is over every month but those months, none of any "overed" call or sms are for me.
not one.
i hope i accidently bump you on the streets one of these daes too.
n you will shriek happily just like you said in your blog bout meeting that old sec sch frend.
but i wont.
i swear i will sae, "who are you?"
gosh, how i yearn to see your expression then.
stop calling me your frend babe.
this entry is specially just for you.
'cos i aint your frend nomore.
i cn live without you& im living it well(:

goodbye.
OH. and stop with the wrist cutting?
afew droplets of blood could never heal up the wounds you caused.
afew droplets of blood could never cover up the scars i independently cure.
that few droplets of blood can never be compared to the buckets of tears i flow for& bcos of you.

2007-06-05T00:53:00.001-07:00

class trip to sentosa is down in two daes.
chuanmei is off to genting this morning.
bon vovage babe, takecare& have loads of fun((:
me too...me too.
poly cnt give me fun.
nowadaes cnt give me fun.
reality cnt give me much fun either.
it cnt give me achieved dreams too.

found no motivation.
& gosh. im getting so emo from the isolation at home.
im a forgotten.
who dont have a past? who dont want a future?

2007-05-28T21:27:00.000-07:00

29may.2oo7
tuesday.
waetocalm.

its raining outside.
its freezing inside.
i thot glass windows are to block out the temperature?
omgosh. im being emo.
todae's computering and mathematics.
played a game that is soooo boring.
THUS, im free to blog.
hahaha.
thunder strikes& ryan says "raining!"
lol.
istillwanapontodaelarh!!!

2007-05-28T03:37:00.000-07:00

i was listening to this song and suddenly you just popped into my mind.
&no matter how i tried to get rid of you, you simply is rooted there, with this song.
~~i might be in love~~.
but its okae(: 'cos this is just an impossible dream.
lets stop it at the sweetest.

quote from Sclubseven's "have you ever"
Tell me
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say
I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way I feel about you and me
Baby have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Looking down the road you should be taking
I should know 'Cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

lets not wait for this dae.
there will not be one dae i will sae sorry to you,
you are just one sweet bloody bastard.
(:

2007-05-24T02:20:00.000-07:00

23052oo7
wednesday.
screams.

i will forever remb todae.
pirates of the caribbean is just so...
SCREAMS.
awesome larh.
i really did screamed. its totally too nice.

SCREAMS,

and im like...the first to clap when the movie ends, then people followed.

duh.
how cn you not clap for such a bravo movie?
screams screams screams.
omg help. i just couldnt stop screaming and shrieking.
SCREAMS.
watch it people.
pirates of the caribbean have got to be the best movies ever watched by millions of me and us and they and them and he and she and SCREAMS.
screams screams screams.

im a pirate.
im proud of it too(:
Captain Jack Sparrow is my daddy&
Jack is my pet.
Will turner is my brother and Elizabeth rock out my world too.
(:
my world aint complete without pirates of the caribbean& i mean it:D
iloooooovepiratesofthecaribbean and sosomuchMORE.
SCREAMS.

2007-05-22T18:11:00.000-07:00

now im sure, positively confirm that trust is so fragile.
as long as a mouth moves, another secret shall be exposed.
no need to trust anymore, just myself.
betrayers, im not telling you anymore thing.
you have no idea how much i despise you right now.
my frends are just someone whom i cnt rely on.
unlucky me.

2007-05-19T06:59:00.000-07:00

nineteeno52oo7
saturdae.
ilovetodae:D

met xiaofen n lilin todae and realised how "nolife" that has been to me in RP.
laughter aint that real in RP not matter what.
guess things still takes time):
i miss lilin and xiaofen and kiwi and guaiguai so much.
squashed inside a grooming room with my cliques and doggs never felt that much memorable.
n so many others i need to take the whole night to finish the name list.
now even lilin wants it...
the time machine.

ilooooooovetodae ever so much more.
that short two three hours meant so much.
thank u, lilin and fen for bringing real joy back into my life(:
i love you guys. n all old besties out there working hard with their own lifes.
like those warmth chuanmei gave me, "you are being missed."

2007-05-18T01:51:00.000-07:00

i felt so guilty.
but i told myself i must keep my promise.
THUS i will.
hereby another promise to myself.
i shall not skip school for the next weeks until holidaes.
except for monday.
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry.

hush dont cry my dear frends.
life is filled with up and downs.
laugh out n be happy(:
STA team nine are here...

2007-05-16T03:40:00.000-07:00

16052007
wednesdae.
fanstinated

wed aint that bad afterall.
teammates changed todae, so its okae.
hated physics in secondary& still hates it in poly.
gosh, basicsciences is really hard(more like NUSsciences)

OHbtw, kiwi is pampered not bcos she's a babe.
she's having menses. &justsimply cute((:
sat arrive soon please.
i miss mabesties& their doggies.
wed arrive soon please.
captain Jack Sparrow n his crews are waiting.
mon arrive soon please.
cos littlemiss crybabe here wants her two weeks break.

2007-05-14T04:05:00.000-07:00

i just want to talk.
i just want to laugh, goof n play.
i just want happiness.
i just want to blog.
owell. at least there is still one desire fulfilled.
im grateful(:

2007-05-12T02:48:00.000-07:00

twelveo5.2oo7
saturdae.
sick)):

im sick.
im drowsy.
i like that medicine(for once). taste like sterpsil:D
journey to RP is still far.
i still miss you guys out there.

on wed, i hate wed.
smething silly makes me wana laugh.
a dumbdumb frm my class saes that im a dumbdumb.
cos i dont "click" with him n doesnt have that pretty face.
he chooses frends. pretty girls top his list.
owell. im still stuck with him for another few more wks.
so despite there is a dumbdumb in my wed team, its okae.
that dumbdumb aint me.

had sushi with xiaofen n gerald too.
gerald's treat:D
xiaofen n i ate all we can and were darn filling.
RKhouse joke almost burst rice out of my stomach too!
indians now make me laugh): hais.
nvmind, i need that break anywae.
blogger went kuku again, lilin changed url without informing me))':
clara isstillsick,
lovesrainydaes,
lovesoldfrendsstill.
hatewednesdae,
hatedumbdumbwithstampedeyes
and hatesMcramps):

P.S. i wana that tan. arh.

2007-05-04T14:12:00.000-07:00

my life long dance
people dance for passion.
some dance for a complete dream.
both reasons are my main dance keen.
majority dance for newest trend.
more dance for coolness.
but they still got in nevertheless.

i tried my best.
i tried it hard.
i guess this time im giving up.
rest assure, no more tears.
no more weeping bear.
cos i had finally master the art of not to care.

without feelings,
without dance,
i believe i can still live my life to its fullest fun.
no inclass friends,
no reasons why,
but i dont bother for another try.

love me still.
love me hard.
frends that i have you from the start.
three wks back, three wks passed.
wisdom, i have gain.
and now, i have it all so tame.

written by:sohyien.

im okae. im fine.
rest assure my darlings.
i will be alright.
no dance, no friends is nothing big.
its just that, i score no goals in my one game kick.
sympathy and tears, i dont need.
a big warm hug is what i seek.
but forget bout that ...ew kiss.
please:D

2007-05-01T22:24:00.000-07:00

im such a lone ranger):
i still wants that timemachine.
but im crying nomore.

im happier when i simply just dont care.
THUS im a lone ranger.
have no idea what to sae, what to do.
oplease. let me just As my modules...

rain rain go awae. come again another dae. rain rain go awae. lots of me just wana play.

2007-04-27T14:43:00.000-07:00

twentyseven.o42oo7
fridae.
ARGH.

tell you guys something dumb.
i went back HS with nothing else but my handphone
and leave with nothing else except my handphone.
no IC/ezlink card = no Olevel cert.
great. new equation..must remb the next time i went back.
darn):

2007-04-26T03:50:00.000-07:00

26april.2oo7
thursday.
OOOmg.

HAPPY BDAE SHUYIN!
this time, i wish to the correct person.
YEAH babe, you rock larh.
best wishes for you(: n in everything you do.
WISH YOU DREAMS COME TRUE!

i had a dream ytd night.
sweet or bad? no idea really.
me. i sweetdream-ed of a guy.
but me n him were never meant to be.
(if you think is that herb, trust me. ya wrong)
weird.totally):
but dreams are forever dreams.
dream coming true? haha.
im never that lucky one. and i know that.

isimplyjust doontcare(: says:
i have a new motto which i shall stick to for the next five decades.
i simply just dont care.
that wae, more happiness will fill my life. im sure, very.
frends please love me still kae(:

2007-04-24T03:10:00.000-07:00

i wana...
lie on your shoulder with my laptop hugging right in front of me,
and drift off to sleep in that crowded mrt.
then i wouldnt bother to search for the dreamland.
im already in one.

i know...
im safe. cos you are there with me.
you will hold me tight when i falling.
n protect me from everything.
i know you will.

muhahaha.
nice?
i think i will add it to my story(:
n YAHOH. i have like.. oweing you guys so many stories >.<
hais. me not persistent one leh):
jiayou jiayou orh clara.
hehe.

2007-04-22T20:21:00.000-07:00

23.april.2oo7
monday.
headneyes aches):

life is peek and cliff in RP.
althou it has only been a wk, i have experienced alot.
but now everything is okae.
i might have screwed up my first week but its really okae.
there will alwaes be a second one.
when lights are shut off of me, i know that life still have to move on.
despite how hard my route will be. jiayou jiayou clara(:
n i know that im never alone.
my family is here. my frends are here. Jesus is alwaes here.
they will not doubt me. they love me for who im(:

arh.
school actually aint that tiring.
time in poly seems to fly faster than in sec sch.
maybe bcos there is only one break in sec but two breaks in poly.
unlike e other polys, RP is weird.
fixed timetable, eightthirty to four pm daily.
one dae one module one presentation one daily grade.
life is cold in RP.
wondered how many percent of my sch fees are on the electric bills really.
haha.
but i dont really have to care that much.
life is contradicting in RP.
i love RP but i dont like it too.
yea. contradicting me(:

ogosh. i really really miss HS pals all so much.
but hey. im still new. im still adapting.
im sure, im getting use to it(:
encourage me kae my besties, my pals?
i think i need em loads right now.

2007-04-20T17:59:00.000-07:00

my grounds are chipping off like crumbs of toasted bread.
STOP ME FROM BITING please.
'cos my world is on that very verge of collapsing.

im not sadistic.
i just want that time machine.
why cnt i just not care?

clara lovestocry):

2007-04-18T22:22:00.000-07:00

lilin. xiaofen. chuanmei. kelly. fengying. safina. junshen. quangtung. keefe. samsam. eleen. eileen. rebecca. wanyan. weiling. joanne. shiqi. geraldine. shawn. aidil. deanne. raymond. nadirah. hengsheng.
you guys (maybe you might not believe) are all missed by me.
those jokes, sacrastism, concern, love, laughter, hugs, energy and so much unameable more.

then i know im still alive. im living(:

2007-04-14T16:28:00.000-07:00

you alwaes looks as if you dont really care.
but i know you do. you just do.

2007-04-13T18:50:00.000-07:00

12042007
thursdae.
funfunfun.

played loads of fun games todae.
got carried up by two guys twice for a same game(and i think im the heavy one har)
and omg. my teammates are all nice and frendly people larh!
sweetsweet STA team nine. hahas.
and i had been molested. seriously, i mean it.
remind me to tell you guys everything tmr kae girlfrends? (i know you know who you are)
(:

13.ofour2oo7
friday.
moreFUNFUNFUN.

okae. allow me to scream and freak out first.
omg omg omg omg omg omg omg OMG!!!
have got to tell you guys all about it(i know you know who you are)
i loathe a kuku pervert! and he's like.. from my team.
STA team nine all thinks he's kuku, cos he indeed is one.
OMG.
hahahaha.
oh i lost my voice):
sweet pretty sexy hot voice of mine.
cos screamed wae too much todae during partae-ing:D
STA cheered, danced and sang so darn loud.
cos we simply rock(:
team republic OP 2oo7 Jam and Hop rock totally larh.
its RP's rock concert.
and oh gosh, i've never ever dreaded the stinky smell of sweat so much before.
the field(where the concert is held) is totally muddy from the earlier rainstorm.
plus oshit. my foot got stuck and sank right into the mud with every step):
ended up im a muddy mobsta. haha.
but wth.
RP rock out my world! HELL YEAH.

do you want a Jackson?
yes. i want a Jackson!
get your Jacksons todae frends(:
they can rock your orientation up high too.

2007-04-11T06:02:00.000-07:00

09,10april 2oo7
monday.tuesday.
lets share share larh=D

todae is STA camp.
its fun and cold and awkward and nervous at first.
met afew new frends and some seniors too.
and met a girl that look sooo much like daphne khoo.
she mini daphne larh. daphne khoo when she is fourteen.
and me ton the night. not delibrately.
cos all mobsta and youngsta slept on floor in forum with aircon fully blast right above me.
plus, i dont have a sleeping bag or a blanket. my towel is still wet from my evening five pm bathing and im wearing shorts.
trembled like mad. cannot get into dreamland):
second dae. an extremely embarrassing dae.
haha.
my stomach cramped badly whole dae thru and start making silly funny embarrassing noises.
hahahahaha. really very stupid.
then its ad remake. we are the second up so i can sit back and relax looking at the other teams perform theirs.
some are really really really funny.
laugh til stomach cramped.
stomach cramped + stomach cramped = more stupid weird noises.
a new equation yea.
hahahaha.
during rest time in LT, mobsta played on clubbing songs and loads of boys and some senior girls starts to rock out loud on stage.
and omg. azizual has a lost twin! just look at that guy dance on stage makes me suspect if they came from the very same womb.
azizual will scream if he knows:D
everyone cheers and gotten so darn high. me oso. haha.
im addicted to songs. im addicted to dancing. so im high. really high.
palms aches, sore and red from clapping. throat sore from cheering.
hm...i think i will become a teamleader next year(:
i wana dance on stage!
haha. nonono larh.. just wana see how nervous and geeky youngsta next year will been acting.
they probably will remind me of my geeky stupid self.
but must remember to get a sleeping bag first.
yupyup(:

omg. this is such a looong entry.
has been ages since ms lazy-me wrote something this long.
last must be my O's composition.
ENJOY orientation too you guys!
tmr is mine RP orientation second dae (but was thinking of ponning)
HELLO people. clara is back home!

2007-04-07T21:14:00.000-07:00

eight.april2oo7
sunday.
excited.

i reaslised im a com geek.
a geek that knows wae toooo little bout coms):
and i realised my frends are com geeks.
they are geeks that knows wae toooo much more things bout coms that i do):
but actually, its an advantage for me:D

owell.
im off to FOP camp.
byebyeee!

2007-04-05T21:56:00.000-07:00

my com is currently crashed. by me.
arh.
so pleasee dont rub me any more salt on me wounds(:
haharhs.
but lilin's hse com is good too thou.
still.. cant come often.
cos she didnt like mee):

im baccccccccccck!

2007-03-28T04:40:00.000-07:00

be my spices(:
28march2oo7
wednesdae.
((:

tiring tiring larh.
but finally went to every polys in spore already.
YAY. haha.
same old same old libin. laugh like mad when in the mrt and in poly.
first went to ngee ann poly cos libin needs to hand in some forms(which are currently in my bag) which is bad. quite bad.
after that. republic poly.
RP is sooo cool.
they are aircon-ed everywhere and elevators and lifts too.
but three food courts. only):
this poly is SO made for me please.
its like my poly without the name clara soh=D
RP totally rock.
libin and yiqian rock this trip to NP and RP even more(:
they are my spices.
hahahar.s

ofreak. im so darn beat.
im falling asleep during blogging):
althou woodlands station from ang mo kio station seems near, i still hope i can get thru this three years without any inside out from my body.
i know not having carsick is not quite possible)):
arh.
hope not hope not pleaseee(fingers crossed and knotted)

okaeokae larh.
thats all for todae ler.
countdown two more daes to my very own Fujitsu laptop.
YAY laptop!
YAY rp!
YAY me=D

i live to love.
i live to laugh.
i live to feel you.
lets spice up some lives!

2007-03-24T20:40:00.000-07:00

you wont know...
i cry my tears dry.
and dry my tears to cry.

you wont know...
i dance till i collapse.
and collapse down from dance.

you wont know...
i scream my throat sore.
and sore my throat to stop screaming.

you wont know...
i had broken my dream.
and along my heart is broken.

you wont know...
i jigsaw back my broken dream.
and dream to jigsaw everything back.

there are so much things you dont know.
there are so much things that you alwaes think you knows.
though, you dont.

you dont.wont.never know...
i lock up my heart to stop loving you.
and throw that key awae to lock up my heart.

2007-03-23T16:52:00.000-07:00

heyhey babes. is anyone up for an old song?
lols.
im so slow.

dont say you love me
Got introduced to you by a friend
You were cute and all that
Baby you set the trend
yes you did oh
The next thing I know we're down at the cinema
We're sitting there, you say love me
What's that about?
You're moving too fast
I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet
baby I can't pretend
No I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible
Eventual
Love will find a way (Love will find a way)
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me
Give me some time
Here's how I play
Here's where you stand
Here's what to prove
To get any further than
Where it's been
I'll make it clear
Not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow
You keep pushing me
You're pushing me away(pushing me away)
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me
Give me some time
(Don't say you love me
You don't even know me baby
Baby don't say you love me
Baby.Give me some time)
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me
Give me some time

enjoy(:

2007-03-21T18:33:00.000-07:00

lilin once said that a average person's lifetime only requires four percent of the brain.
and genuis like einsten only uses six percent of his.
hm..i wonder how many percent have i been using mine?
one percent bah.
but how come i got the feeling that lilin and my other cliques will sae that i used lesser?
erm. okae..maybe, zero point one percent?
that should be low enough.
LaughOutLoud.s.

but i wana be at least two to three to four to five percent larh >.<
erm..it isnt impossible one. right?
=D

2007-03-14T18:43:00.000-07:00

the sweet escape
If I could escapeI would, but first of all let me say
I must apologize for acting, stinking, treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk fell on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refridgerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold
If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Whatsoever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, Now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape(I wanna get away, to our sweet escape)
You let me down
I'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me out
I need to get me out of this joint
Come on, let's bounce
Counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around let's look for some common ground
So baby, times getting a little crazy
I've been getting a little lazy
Waiting for you to come save me
I can see that you're angry
By the way the you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me
Want to take you with me
If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape
If I could escape
Cause I've been acting like sour milk fell on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refridgerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold
If I could escape
And re-create a place in my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape
(I wanna get away, to our sweet escape)

i wana get awae.
where is my place of sweet escape?
i've always been a real bad girl.

2007-03-14T04:18:00.000-07:00

i can..
dont mind my studies. dont mind my school.
but..
i mind not being able to dance again.
i cant live without dancing in my life. i cant i cant i cant.
please. dont take my only treasured talent awae from me.

i can bite my lip hard to stop my escaping cries.
to shout out im still not regretting, stubbornly.
but that is all a stupid lie. since now.

2007-03-09T18:46:00.000-08:00

hero
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time you'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you.

2007-03-06T22:08:00.000-08:00

i still trust you.
i still believe in you.
i will never doubt you.
you have your reasons for your doings.
may it be a punishment or a lesson or a protection,
i will have faith in you.
forever.

have got to lock up my hopes, dreams, faith, courage, persistence well and tight.
im afraid it might wonder off, lost.

2007-03-05T23:26:00.000-08:00

unregretful
when the rain blocks up my walking route,
and the door slammed shut behind me.
when the porchlights snap off and i cant see,
im not regretting what i want to be.

sometimes surroundings abandon me,
darkness spins and engulfs in my whole world.
sometimes im just that weak, timid little girl,
im not regretting despite my fears makes me curl.

occassionally my hopes ran away,
and doubts are here to stay.
occassionally i search my heart for my dreams,
im still not regretting. my tears arent what they seems.

rarely energy and persistent are drained right out of me,
have i accidentally unlocked my door and lost the key?
rarely i scream out every last bit of my bursting desire,
but im never regretting. my persistent wont turn into ashes despite burnt by fire.
written by: sohyien

im not regretting. im never regretting.

2007-03-05T00:13:00.000-08:00

i walked down rosyth road with a pair of heels in my hands but nothing on my feet.
through the night of march four 2oo7.

dont hesitiate, just try.
or else you will never know the true meaning of living.
life is short. im never regretting.

2007-03-02T05:01:00.000-08:00

o2march2oo7
friday.
felt cold.

todae groomed mini, beebee and girlgirl.
wha. fen and me todae not bad leh.
we finished basic grooming three dogs in like.. erm. afew hours only.
HELLO. we used to take afew hours for one dog.
so hey, its such a good improvement plureaseee.
ahahas.
but todae was surprisingly not that tiring for me(shocked).
hahas. todae is still fun larh. and earn money too neh.
cool.

finally. it rains.
ogosh. finaly, darn finally please.
im so gonna be toasted spirt(hei gu jing?) soon if spore doesnt rains can.
LaughOutLoud.
i love rain. just like lilin.
all virgos love rain(: i think.
it makes me feel so happy. surprising relief althou i have no burden. and very relaxed.
i can just stare at the raining sky and smile stupidly when it rains.
(but i dont do that often. only rarely. rarrrrrrely)
rain makes me so sleepy larh.
so im like gonna go. and sleep(:

goodnight readers.
sweet dreams for all of you and me tonight. every night.

2007-03-01T05:39:00.000-08:00

sing. sang. sung.
ring. rang. rung.
think. thank. thung.

2007-02-24T12:46:00.000-08:00

someone once said that women are roses in a garden.

white roses, so pure and innocent but irressible.

red roses, so mysterious and elegant but wanted.

men loves roses despite those thorns.

women loves roses because we are them.

roses are flowers. flowers withers.

on that day when our last petal withers away, will we still be that irressible and wanted?

yet someone say...
love are roses. too beautiful to deny, too magical to resist.
no fears of those thorns, just want that rose.
stupidly getting pricked and bleed, the consquences were hard to bare.
then, the rose wither away. like love.
from missing to thinking to the end, nothing.
is there rose that doesnt withers?
stop. your everything.

sohyien.written.

2007-02-22T19:55:00.000-08:00

22feb.2oo7
thursday
woot.

todae is a... erm special dae.
woke up darn bright and early this morning jus to get to school.
cos hav to go for interior architecture and design course's interview at TP.
i saw my precious handmade, homemade, selfmade foilo again!
oo..! i love my foilo.
but too bad, hougang secondary's policy is foilo cn never be taken back my its owner even after the O's examinations.
):
please larh. i work hard on that foilo.
that foilo that wasnt gonna be returned to mee!!!!!!
wth.
okae, nvmind.
waited for like...three and a half hours? jus for the interview.
looking at other candidates walking out one by one.. after every half an hour, i jus felt so pissed.
hais.
n that interview..didnt go really well.
they laughed at some of my answers which i dun think is funny.
sighsighsigh.
forget it. i shall jus stop whatever negative thinkings that were trying to get into my head.
i shall kick every single em out like a flying soccer ball.
YAY! goal(:

i know im lazy.
you know im lazy.
everyone knows that im extremely lazy.
so i shall hereby prove to all of u that im lazy.
LaughOutLoud.

im going to bed.
byeeeeeee.

2007-02-14T18:36:00.000-08:00

cry me a day of true happiness.
cry me a day of true laughter.
cry me a day of understanding.
cry me an eternity of no tears.
cry me a forever of numbness.

2007-02-13T16:31:00.000-08:00

14feb.2007
wednesday.
loved.

happy valentines dae to all of my love ones out there!
that includes my family, frends and much more.
hahas.
hope that everything comes well to you peeps this year.
love people and be love(:
sumack for all you out there!

eleveno2'2oo7

sunday.

happy. funfun!

todae went to make pineapple tarts.

its a annual thing to Soh family.

n im forced to do the first shift..

hahas. actually first shift aint that bad larh.

jus that i have to rolled at least a thousand of pineapple balls from three packets of ten kg pineapple fillings.

hais. is what i said when i once again saw the big packet of pineapple fillings.

n its really really sticky, trust me.

so darn *^%#% sticky cos hav to roll it into tiny balls with my palms.

but yeah, eventually got use to it aft afew hrs.

then its time to stuff the tiny pineapple balls into the dough and make it into a round ball.

then one is done! there. easy? nort.

LaughOutLoud.s.

but then aft that my cousins came n we chat and make at the same time.

so it turns out realy fun!

n we made zodiac pineapple tarts too!

hahas.

n one of my cousins calculated that we at least made 2880 pineapple tarts.

so one person at least made 300plus tarts.

im like.. what? i got make so much meh?

ahahahas.

but wth. its fun then.

n hey, its a annual thing. im nv gonna complaint(:

2007-02-09T03:28:00.000-08:00

o9feb2oo7
friday.
nothing.weird.

took results todae.
loads of people cried. tears of joy n of sadness.
well..i didnt cry.
i didnt even knw how i feel. im nort happy, neither m i sad.
im nort even relief.
its jus.. orh, i got twenty for my L1B4.
yeah, twenty.
but well.. at least i can get into interior design!
YAYYAYYAY!
ahahahahs(:
im jus happy forever. im jus never sad one larh.
no choice.. my jiejie snatched all those genes from me.
(:
thanku Jesus.

xiaofen n lilin n chuanmei n libin n yiqian and everyone of u pals out there,
CONGRATULATIONS!
cos i knw u guys scored real well.
u guys did ur best and got the results that u deserved(:
kelly, dun be sad.
althou i knw what i said nw is useless cos everything is already a fact.
but i wana u to knw no matter what there is still alot of shoulders out there for u to lean on.
that's lilin, me, fengying, chuanmei, ur sister and so much more!
so is two shoulders x five = ten shoulders.
JIAYOU JIAYOU kelly!
xiao yi xiao, mei she me shi guo bu liao de(:
be strong orh!

2007-02-04T17:15:00.000-08:00

05 jan'o7
monday.
arh.arh.arh.

im lazy to blog. but yet, i wana blog.
ahahahas.
or else very dui bu qi those besties who cant see me everydae and is dying to knw how m i.
(i knw u guys misses me alot. i misses you guys too leh!)
ogosh. im gonna cry.
anwae, heard that O's results will be releasing on feb nine.
which means...this bloody darn friday!
at first i like.. totally freaked larh.
but after that i thot.. hey. im always e one that is darn slacking around here n there during exams period.
so my scare is so tiny compared to the other who studied more.
n almost everyone studys more than i do.
lilin, chuanmei, deanne, xiaofen, kelly, fengying... confirm did.
so i shld console em more then freaking out here..afterall.
i can slp my wae thru any depression.
arhahahas.
JIAYOU JIAYOU my dear pals.
if i can do it, u guys confirm can too(:
(i will bring tissues on that dae in case u cry too much cos you scored too well)
hehes(:
can do it one larh lilin and xiaofen! hav some faith in urself can.
u guys studied darn darn hard lorh.
so hard u evil guys made me feel guilty for nort studying.
hahas. so everything will b fine.
i shall pray for all of us!

hais. sians.
sch is reopening in april and i got to earn some cash fast.
waitressing is what i wanted.
but nw... im so desperate for a job i actualy found myself finding jobs at the cleaners' sections.
arh. this is soso wrong.
):
but hey. chinese new yr is coming!
YAY foooooood!
YAY new yr gooodies!
YAY angbao!
YAY me!!

2007-01-26T05:30:00.000-08:00

26o12oo7

friday.

excited.happy.

lilin, chuanmei, kelly!!!

i got my hair dyed todae!!

hahas.

xiaofen too..

check mine out=D

2007-01-11T17:52:00.000-08:00

11 jan 2oo7
wednesday.
cold.freezing cold.

HAPPY BIRTHDAE HUI LYNN!!!!!
my tiny little fren is finally seventeen!
its over with e sec sch years..so, look ahead my dear.
u survived strongly thru e times that u thot u couldnt..
but u did it!
stay happy n positive, smile more larh(:
all e best for everything u that u yearns to do..
soar high lynn.

todae is bloody cold larh!
ahahas.
n todae theres four doggies in e grooming room.
whao. thats alot lorh.. but gerald sae there is eight bfore. is jus that i didnt see it bfore..
LOLs.
n milly pee-ed on gerald n me (cool! i had never been pee-ed on bfore lehh! ooOo..!!)
oh.. n bite gerald too >.<
and beebee is so poor thing. he has one blinded eye that looks red and swollen):
it looks as if someone punched him in the eye):
heard that his owner owns four doggies..but couldnt really afford all of their expenses n attentions to every single one..
but still wana gay kiang.
so brainless pls.

anwae.. gt my ever first pay todaeeeeeee!!!!!
althou is only fifteen dollars but... YAY!!!!!!
YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!
BIG sumack(!) to e money larh~
muhahahahahahas.
moneymoneymoneymoney. ($.$) < thats nort me.
muhahahahahahas.

2007-01-03T18:21:00.000-08:00

they

quiet building, silent room.
darkness and terror hereby blooms.
miracles rsoe from beneath the tomb.
frreedom whole night, under the moon.

noises blasting hurts their heads.
obviously someone still isnt in bed.
revenge therevore hereby came.
noises must be tame.

silence once again descend.
noises of any sort shall be ban.
as the wind blows, they turned sand.
but they are miracles, revive they always can.

someone out there made a sound.
annoyed they were, they all frown.
get rid of those noise-maker, thats a bound.
from then on, they must never be found.

quiet building, silent room.
darkness and terror hereby bloom.
miracles crawl back under they very own tomb.
freedom whole night, ended so soon.

another poem by me.
but strangely this time its nort about love.
hahas.
i like this poem cos it sounds mysterious and chilly but interesting at the same time.
hope you guys enjoy it(:

2006-12-24T13:35:00.000-08:00

i knw i might be alittle late..
cos i fall aslp at nine ytd night instead of twelve o one.
but watever cos i wana wish...

JESUS, HAPPY BIRTHDAE!!!

and

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!
to all of my frends out there.
(especialy those who wishes me merry xmas ytd night when i off my cell n is aslp.)
>.< sorry!

but everything was SO fab n fun ytd.
went to city harvest church with my cousins n get to knw afew new frens.
they are SO friendly larh! so fun to chat with, totally no pressure or anything like that(:
hahas.
n e drama was awlsome too!
its very touching larh..n all of em said they cried.
but i didnt cry! (so my cousin sae im cold blooded)
-.- so mean pls.
LaughOutLoud.
aft e service went to the christmas carnival sponsored by some.. uncle ringo guy.
but its one of city harvest church's activity larh.
n it too SOOo long jus for e bumper car ride): then we hav gt to run.. cant play anymore.
kboxing on christmas eve is ever so fun! (n so expensive as well)
>.<
four persons for $86.24 for five hrs only lehh! LEHHH!!!
my xin hao tong. (althou that is nort my money)
but im like in a crazy mood ytd, dunnoe why.
going crazy in e kbox rm n even aft we came bac!
i can sense my sis's terrible urge to poke her chopsticks right into my eyes n boil (em in steamboat) when i kept on singing ju hua tai to her at e dining table.
muhahahas.

oo! i received very little christmas gifts only lehh!
but all r so nice!!!
nvmind. i shall take photos n post em to show off on my blog which anyone hardly knws!
muhahas. again.

gtg eat christmas coookies!
YAY!
ciaos.

owait, i would like to sae.
ytd was perfect, everything was perfect.
even e weather is perfect.
well.. xcept for e part wher im eating steamboat instead of turkey n ham or my hse that gambling.. den....
okae, nvmind.

BYEBYEE!
hahas.

2006-12-18T00:59:00.000-08:00

18dec 2oo6
mondae.
happy.

hahas.
christmas is here!
cos my mom is constantly asking me, "want to knw what your christmas present is?" almost every two hrs, every dae.
n i'll owaes sae, "no."
then she will hav that disappointed expression n sae, "knw lah, knw lah. i tell you larh..."
hahahahaahas!
(that's my mame. hais, i dunnoe why she can giv born to three extremely intelligent daughters but yet she is like..hais.)
but she's cute. i love her very much.
christmas dao ler.
so is the rainy season of spore, everydae is jus as cold as winter (to me larh)
but that feeling of warmth i felt...
i guess everyone can feel it too.
walking along orchard street, looking at the lightning and christmas trees.
looking at bunch and bunch of people joying around.
this is christmas(:
n im happy that this christmas, i wasnt alone.
i hav family who kept on forcing me to knw my christmas present bfore xmas dae.
n i oso hav so many frends who shares christmas joyness with me.
LOLs of joyness and happiness.
i love christmas.
i love my family.
i love my friends, all of em.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE I LOVE!
HOHOHO.
ohmegosh. she's asking again!
really really she is... hais.
HELP MEE!!

P.S. if anyone wana gimme a christmas present, PLEASE gimme a jacket or hood or sweater or a air ticket to e desert!! im freezing to death >.<
AND i have been noting. it has rained six times since dawn broke out, and four times since 12.04 noon todaeee!
cold pls.

2006-12-16T23:14:00.000-08:00

christmas trees are up.
presents are wrapped and welly hidden (plurease, its under e christmas tree)
foods are prepared.
activites are arranged.
beautiful lightning are lited all ard orchard road.
(and the totally crystalled christmas tree sponsored by swarosaki in front of heeren!)
all these only hints us one thing...
CHRISTMAS IS HERE!!!!

2006-12-12T17:34:00.000-08:00

i love this song.
althou its a song sang quite a long time ago, but...
wth. I ADORES IT!!!!!

when it all falls apart
I'm having the day from hell
It wasn't all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No
Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No
Can it be easier? Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No, falls apart
Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up

enjoy(:

2006-12-11T19:51:00.000-08:00

oh btw, i've written a poem at archive october.
cos the previous template cant read chinese words(dunnoe why lehh. weirdweird de)
lols. so nw i published it once again!
welcome to go see it and post ur comments kae?
thanks(:
oh oh! and e story...hope u readers like it.
ENJOY!!!!!

2006-12-11T18:37:00.000-08:00

mysterious you (part ten)
stupid woman. i've never seen such a stupid woman in my entire life before!
she is so stupid, she criticises my bedroom right in front of me.
she is so stupid, she didnt realised that there are still tears rolling down her cheeks.
she is so stupid... her every little actions aches my heart.
looking at her since the moment i rested her onto my bed, she is still unconscious then.
duh. if she's conscious, i wont be looking at her that intentively.
so intentively, i shocked myself too.
but well, maybe i had a busy day in school today.
so... well, all this saving her and looking at her and taking care of her...is just..
oh no, what the heck is she doing now?
is she trying to...slap me? she has got to be kidding me.
"what the heck do you think you are doing?"
"im trying to get even! thats what im doing!"
her answer...dont get it. "huh?"
at that very split second, she had gotten even with me.
she slapped me, hard. on my right cheek.
im so shock and angry... i just cant control myself.
"what the @£%%^%&&*)*(*%"£%!" i knew it, i just knew it.
its wrong to mind other people's business.
i should just stick to my very principle right from the beginning.
i shouldn't be so nosy just because she triggers some unknown feeling within me. afterall, im never someone who believes in true love or miracles. i just dont know what got into me this few days.
this is not suppose to be.
oh god. what have i gotten myself into?

mars, so hot.
pluto, so cold.
both seems so far, yet too near.
they, connected by a thread.
a thread that seemed invisble but undoubt, existed.
a thread call fate.

2006-12-08T18:12:00.000-08:00

nine dec 2oo6
saturday.
amazed. really.

after O's, time seems to fly.
actually, starting frm e first dae of olevels. times seems to fly..
bfore O's, i kept telling myself.
dun worry, you can do this. time will pass damn fast and everything will b over before u even knw it.
hahahas. yah, this is realy so true.
see, look around me.
everyone is busying everydae. working, slacking, playing... busy busy BUSY.
hahahas. even i got a job, got use to the job and got use to nort having anymore afternoon naps.
got use to leave hse everydae without fail. got use to the one and only route to my wkplace.
got use to many many more things that i thot that would never ever happen to me.
things that i thot that i would nv cope, but yet. i did it(:
in this world, there is nth that cant be get use to. nothing at all.. its jus a matter of habit thats all.

ogod, my dear friends. all of you.. how are you?
what are you doing nw?
are you happy that O's are over?
secondary sch life is finally over?
LaughOutLoud.

btw...starting to write stories again.
whao. when was e last time i said this?
hahahas.
kaekaes lah. its jus a moment of emotional sadness, will b over in nort time(:
MY DEAR FRIENDS!!!!!! I MISS YOU GUYS, NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE NOW!

2006-12-03T05:30:00.000-08:00

23 nov o6
thursday.
EXCITED. happy.

OLEVELS ARE OVER!
AND IM OFF TO MALACCA.
CIAOS!!!

26 nov o6
sunday.
exhausted. DRAINED.

OLEVELS ARE OVER!
IM BACK FROM MALACCA.
HELLO.
HOLIDAES ARE HEREEe!

29 nov o6
wednesday.
speechless.

ITS MY NIGHT TODAE!

its prom night!!!

N IM GOREGOUS(friends said) AND

HAV LOADS OF FUN!!!
i'll nv forget todae.
whee.!

btw.
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAE

CHUANMEI!!!
soar high kaes? dun let any stupid doubts tie u down, u ought and hav e right to smile and b happy(:

P.S. ur present is at a unknown corner in my house. (collecting dust)
lols.

2006-11-19T03:29:00.000-08:00

19nov 2006
sunday.
overJOY.

omg. omg. omg!
im got a job(that i realy realy wanted)!
a groomer! but well.. that is aft i hav finished my grooming course(of cos).
but wth. im jus happy that i gt to b a groomer larh!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. lols(x 1000) please.
xiaofen is my colleage once again=D
and another good new,
lilin is gonna get a new dog!!!!!!! omg. its her dream coming true(YAY her!)
im so happy for her.
anw, tmr is e last O's papers.
omg, can my life getting any greater?
lols.

byebye everyone out there!
im FREE in less than 24 hrs time!
start counting down lar opals.
(date me to eat sakae sushi kae people(: im hungry!)

smile=D

2006-11-12T14:16:00.000-08:00

omg. freedom is near.
so neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEear. i can smell it, taste it and breathe it. (okae, im lying but im jus so happy!)
haha. has.
this is really gonna b SO cool.
a job at vivo city, a whole entire month of non stop watching series of taiwan, hongkong, thailand, indonesia.. (whatever) and SLEEP.
all that i ever wanted. oyeah.
step aside people. cos im going out on a date with relaxation.
laughoutloud. (muhahahahas.)
countdown to freedom
seven daes, 168hours, 241920minutes and 14515200seconds
TO FREEEEEEDOM!

so be prepared people.
major craziness will be going on soon.
if can, bring ur handphone with you. u may need it.
=D

odaddy pirate ship is coming to a halt. great.
cos i serious needs to puke. (seasick!)
good luck everyone(:

2006-11-11T22:43:00.000-08:00

12november 2oo6
sunday.
strangely relieved(:

this whole week really is horrible, horrible and horrible.
bcos its olevels. all those papers, all those hours in e hall is scary larh.
so frustating. how i hope i can scream in e middle of english paper and scare e shit out of those teachers yakking awae on the stage.
that would b fun huh.
(stupid teachers ignored me larh!!!!!!!!! wth. i jus wanted more papers thats all.)
but im glad that i pulled it thru. this whole horrible week. thats its name.
monday was emaths paper one and social studies.
tuesday was chem, only. (like thanks god) lols.
wednesday is english papers and physis.
then is e MOST disastious dae is thursaday. bcos i woke up at 5am jus to squeeze all those words into my head.
its GEOGRAPHY paper two. e most terrifying paper of all.
but well, ended up falling awae on e floor at 9plus i think.. haha.
so thursday is geography. lah.
went for maths tuition straight after that and another one early at 9am the very next dae.
see! im being tortured.
so i (e bad side) felt guilty, so i made it up to myself (e good side).
n do completely nothing stressful except watching tv whole dae long.
=D hehehes.

anw, im glad i made it this far.
im glad that all my friends are with me when i made it this far(:
u guys are e one that motivates for me to study.
thank u xiaofen, lilin, chuanmei, libin and yiqian. im serious.
u guys rock my world! i owe u guys one(:
haha, gd luck to e coming wks' papers! (i only got two!!! lalala~)

2006-11-01T22:50:00.000-08:00

tag reply to boatplum:
lol. no lah, i jus watched a movie that dae that sort of got me into that depression mood.
haha. no big deal, really(: thanks for caring but my this kinda depression mood can never last!

tag reply to lilin:
thanks for caring lilin, i know you DO=D haha, but im fine. need nort worrying, really.

was wondering,
why people often like say," olevels are coming! olevels are coming!"
instead of
what i say,"olevels are ending! olevels are ending!" ?
bcos everything will eventually come to an end, everything.
so if something is coming, that means it will soon be ending too(excluding marriage n love etc.)
so fear not my stressout friends!
olevels will soon be over and parties will marked e new chapter of life(:

but please. please hoh, study is still a must!
dont go spreading e false news of clara saying mus think of ending O's, so u r prepared for your clothings to wear on 21nov, 22nov, 23nov so on and so forth.
yah, dont.
nw,
STUDY!
and although counting down exams are really stressful stuffs but im still doing it anw.
chose e time you would like to countdown to, cos i've two.

counting down to freedom!!!!!!
days: 18days. 432 more hours, 622080 mins, 37324800 seconds.

countdown to olevels. (seriously, who cares?)
days: 4 more days. 96 hours, 138240 mins, 8294400 seconds.

once again, JIAYOU loh everyone(:

2006-10-19T19:52:00.000-07:00

以前
好久好久的以前，
我曾经爱上一个小男孩。
那种甜蜜的感觉，
是到如今并没消失，它还在。

好久好久以前，
我们曾紧握着手牵着手。
两颗心暖暖的，
沿着夕阳一起向前走。

好久的以前，
我曾经被一个小男孩抢。
他，抢走了我那颗纯真的心，
还霸占了我所有思想。

好久以前，
我们曾许下了永恒的诺言。
这样我们的心就一定不会变，
真心话埋在心底里面。

从前，
我曾哭泣的点着头。
答应陪伴在他的身旁，
往后的人生一起沿着夕阳走。
当他的妻子，让他疼，让他逗。

written by:怡恩

2006-10-14T08:28:00.000-07:00

141o2006
saturdae.
relief, glad.

HAPPY BITHDAY, PAPA!
YOU ARE THE BESTEST DADDY I CAN EVER HAVE!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
okae, so todae is daddy's bdae.
he's 50! (mame sae e good news is that he wont get caned if he goes prison, but im sure he wont even go in there)
(: hahaha.
he really is a loving dad lahh!
he knows im not feeling well, he walk all e wae to (dunnoe where) jus to buy me sour plums.
SEE! he's like so loving me(: i love him so so much pls.
i can nv ask for another dad like him(althou he is very naggy)
oops. hahaha.

omg.
its like (how) many more daes to olevels?
goodnight all NERDS!
im slping in daddy's room tonight=D
(and my menstrual cramp hurts so much, i vomited when eating dimsum at bedok)
okae, wth. thats a bad memory.

*operation storing of memorable daes aborted.

2006-10-12T08:07:00.000-07:00

oct12 2oo6
thursdae.
no extreme emotions.

hahaha!
a new blogskin(like DUH)
cos gt alittle tired of the old one.
but i still adores it lahh! jus mayb a little changes in life..
this and that, then there will b a great difference by the time you realise it.
haha. its like magic.
but this skin is reallyreally cute!
hm...m i a xi xing yan jiu person?
honestly admit, im fancinated by new stuffs (Ocom'on! who dont?)
but im never willing to throw awae the old ones.
so im practically storing junks in my bedroom. memorable junks.
LaughOutLoud.
so overall, im jus a weird person. hahaha.

anw, tmr is graduation dae. MY graduation dae.
yet, im nort going cos there is going to be tons of speeches(predicted)
its nort a real one anw.
ms chia sae its jus to boast up our (watever) to buck up in studying.
like...lame. watever(: hahaha.
jus now that im so gonna miss my pals in sch and those goofing off. fun daes!

stupid besties(you know who you are) spoilt my schbag! lol.
GOODbye.
gently stored inside my treasure capslet and lock it up.

2006-10-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

o7oct2006
saturday.
WEET!!!

okae. mostest importantly that todae is,
it will b a forever special dae on e calendar cos
IT'S MY NEW BORN NEPHEW BDAE!
okae. i dun actually have to be so excited?
but purlease.. this is a BABE!
n everyone but anyone noes how much babes are my type of adoreable!
plus boyboy, too=D

do you peeps noes civil war? definite answer a yes.
do you like civil war? no, i don't. never.. cos its a CIVIL war.
it means... u are fighting yourselves with yourselves.
see! even e explaination sounds silly!!
haha.
i like no war. none.

odear. really, serious odear.
this bloody haze is so stinky! its all chao da smell stains on me!
MUST BATHE!!! mus clean my whole room with frangance flowery stuffs.
*sobsob*
PSI is 150 now lahh. n its night..
im nort feeling well again n im like choking cos im unwilling to breathe):
odear, im extremely worried for my little son outside.
hope it did not have any effects on him, please. he will b perfectly fine!
hm..but mus bring him to a vet soon. his annual appointment plus injection is due.
ogod.
please bless everyone of singapore(:

2006-10-04T21:57:00.000-07:00

o5oct2oo6
wednesday
giddy.

its like, my world is spinning. in turbo speed pls.
TURBO.
first dae, i gt major headache n fever. Great.
mame forced me to clinic and drove off to work with only a toodles. Great.
e doc is SO nort getting my vote for friendliest doc 2006! he's so...UN-friendly. bleah!
evil stupid doc.
second dae, i suffer major wheel spinning dizziness.
n choke on e STUPID CAPSLET n almost died. stupid medicine.
i knew i have a reason to hate medicines and doc and whatsoever that links to em.
they are nothing but disasterous murderous-ing angelic looking people in white bleachable coats with e most "in" hairstyles for doc and DMs (botak)!
third day, which is todae.
went sch, everything is fine(:
have much fun n laughter and love n concern from my besties and peeps in sch.
thank u, you guys!
but head is spinning right now. in fact, it has been spinning since recess but i didnt realy go care.
so ended up it isnt all that bad if u don really care about it.
now its spinning but i wana BLOG. so i blogg-ed. =D

ohmegod.
O's is SO around my corner of my tiny small bedroom!
have GOT TO STUDY! no more laziness is allowed and permited!
(but i jus skipped off my emath tuition to next wk. oops.)
but com'on! im sick isnt i?
shall buck up soon! very very soon!
LOOKOUT ELDERLY DESIGNER! A LITTLE YOUNG DESIGNER COMING THRU!
wheet double, triple for me and daddy pirate plus black pearl!
i just polished e deck ytd kae(:

2006-09-30T22:55:00.000-07:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN YVONNE!
u r like, e only certified sixteen yr old mad woman i've known!
e extreme one(bsides me) lol.
anw, best of all luck for coming O's kae girl!
we r so gonna funk up e party after O's.
i think i shall make Olevels-is-so-history as e theme!
u can dress as e history textbk if u like(:
double e MADNESS! oYEAH!

30sep 2oo6
saturday.
i'm so happy, im flying to e mOoon!
haha!

okae. todae is like another boring dae with e maths tuition n stuff.
but there is one thing different,
and that is i've got a NEW phone!
u noe new? its like... u go there, purchase it.
n u hold it, without scratches n... well. its like.. jus new okae?
hahaha.
i guess yvonne's bdae does bring me loads of lucks!
darn. yvonne, why cant ur bdae b on O's? haha.
=P
anw... that ought to be all for todae!
BYEBYE all besties of pri sch that i adores n misses so much(:
totally miss u guys n those goofing out as a bunch of mad bimbos, ITS SO FUN!

happy dae always lasts,
just dream of em every night,
they shall come true.
MISSING everyone whose laughter cures my doubts.
MISSING daddy pirate too(:

2006-09-29T16:25:00.000-07:00

1.Single,taken or crushing??
Ans : ENGAGED.
2.Are u happy with ur life now?
Ans : never better(:
3.When you meet the right person, will you fall for him/her fast?
Ans : yes.
4.Have you had your heart broken?
Ans : yup.
5.Do you believe there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
Ans : no. honesty always lessen e hurting when the cheating is exposed.
6.Would you talk to someone back if he/she cheats on you?
Ans : haha. sure, y nort? forgive and forget is good. jus..dun cheat me again can liao.
7.Have you talk to another person about marriage before?
Ans : NO! im like.. 16 only okae? hahaha.
8.Do you want children?
Ans : YES!
9.How many?
Ans : TWINS will b great! a boy and a girl.
10.Would you consider adoption?
Ans : if i cant give birth lahh. which i think i can.. should b. im NORT ILL!!
11.If someone likes you right now, what do you think to let you know his/her feelings?
Ans : i dunnoe lehh.
12.Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
Ans : i dunnoe. e first one wasnt at all pleasant or memorable):
13.Be honest. What did you and your ex did?
Ans : WHA! dun remind me! how evil can u get!? fancy reveiling e scars of a pure, sweet, innocent sixteen year old girl!
14.Do you believe in love at first sight?
Ans : YES!
15.Are you romantic?
Ans : hm. define romantic. roses, chocolates and candle dinner arent really my kinda romance. hahahaha.
16.Do you believe you can change someone?
Ans : yes, i can.
17.If you could marry somewhere, where would it be?
Ans : DISNEYLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
18.Do you easily give in when you're fighting?
Ans : patheticially, YES! arh.
19.Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Ans : besides annoyment, hatred and anger? no.
20.Have you ever wish you could have someone but you messed it up?
Ans : no til now. but i gt a feeling with my character, its jus a matter of time. HAIS.
21.Have you broken a heart?
Ans : no. im such a kind girl! how could i possibly break someone's tender heart? LOL.
22.One day if your bestfriend fall in love with he/she that you are deeply in love with. What would you do?
Ans : hm. give him to her i guess. cos its no point being all lovey dovey with him with my bestie suffering a heartache beside us right? at least i still can continue myself n fall right in love with another cutie in no time(:
23.Are you missing someone right now?
Ans : no, nort realy.
Now you have to ask your 5 friends to do thissurvey on their blog.Write down their names below.Tag them in their blog to let them know and DON'T stop doing this survey.This survey have been going around.It made people occupied.Get started.
And the 5 lucky people are:
YVONNE
YUANLIN
KELLY
LILIN
CHUANMEI

2006-09-28T22:24:00.000-07:00

mysterious you (part nine)
"no..no!" oh god. why are they here?
why is it so dark and cold?
why are they surrounding me and pointing fingers at me?
why are they saying such mean stuffs? they are accusing me of something i didn't do!
why are their eyes filled with so much blames? no, no, its not me. they are not accusing me.
they can't be!
why are they chanting? what are they chanting? oh shut up! its hurting me!
my limps, ears and head.. my heart. they are hurting so much, please stop!
its you! its you, you, YOU! hahaahahaha!
stupid girl! naive and dumb! we are using you! hahahahaha!
liars, liars, liars! you have no right to call us that, you taught us. remember? hahahahahha!
hahahahahaahahaha! its you! naive girl!
"NO!" i woke up crying. my past is still haunting me, it never had stopped. it never will.
my sweat mixed itself with my tears as they rolled down my face. the salt water, what i ever hated so much. i can never know the difference between them every night as i woke up, tired i really am. But my past never will gave up the pleasure of torturing me, they turned into nightmares at night even though i shut them off during the day.
i stared down at my whitened clenched fists and released them. the crampled black coloured blanket caught my full attention.
strange, for never would i use colour of this sort for my blanket or any other things else that concerns of me. its white for me all the way, all my life. i love white and its a part of me, never lost.
this...isn't my room. this isn't my bed, this isn't my world.
the shelves are filled with all sorts of trophies, all gold. not even one silver or bronze in sight.
books very untidily arranged inside another glass cupboard. stationaries and more books scattered all around the big table, not a little free space could be spared for even a cup.
extremely bright coloured clothing half hidden behind the wide opened closet while the other one is tightly shut, not able to see what it is inside.
what a messy room! my room will never be in such horrible and pathetic state! this is practically a pig...
"hey! please don't ignore my existence and go on happily critising about my bedroom will you?" suddenly, a quite unhappy voice sounded from beside me. and only then did i realised that i've accidentally commented harsh stuffs out aloud which i normally wouldn't. and shouldn't.
i also realised that, its him! he has been right beside me all this while! from the critising to the observing to the...crying and maybe even when im asleep!
oh god. he really is a very... sorry. im out of words to describe him, so please fill the blanks in yourself. and go for the bad part, not the good one. he can never be good, never. ever. never..
oh whatever! he's just bad bad okay!? right from the start i had contact with him, he just annoys me by every passing dust in the atmosphere. and i can tell you that there are many many many dusts passing us every second. many many many.
so he is like, super super super annoying.
"hello! talk!" he clicked his fingers in front of my eyes to get my attention. and i frowned more, what does he think i am? a barbie doll? a click of fingers and i'll have got to start talking?
arh. i really don't like him.
so, im not going to talk. what can he do to me huh? huh huh HUH? i will not believe that he will do something that can annoy me more than watching me cry and those previous stuffs.
"OUCH!" did...did he just whacked my forehead? with his palm? and force? onto my forehead? with his palm?
okay. i am so wrong. he can annoy me more than those previous things that happened.
arh. i really don't like him.

planet pluto is just never known by anoyone.
planet pluto is just never attracted by anyone.
planet pluto is just never interested by anyone.
and im nort anyone, im pluto. planet pluto.

sorry for the delay my fellow pirate author production's reader!
bcos my com went kuku afew dae ago, and lasted afew ago.
yahh.. so anw. here is part nine of mysterious me. NICE?
thank u for reading it(: owell, enjoy!

i passed my emath mock test! WEET!
kiss solar calculators and bloody red F9 farewell!
oOo! pirate daddy, wait for me!
now i can calculate bearings and nort bring the black pearl to alantic instead!
TRUST ME=D

2006-09-22T06:03:00.000-07:00

22'o9 twentyosix
friday.
SO contented.

i didnt slp the whole of last night.
im SO beat can.
yet i went marketing with mame in the morning, but i dun mind.
cos i LOVE marketing. haha. dun ask me why, i dunnoe.
then came home, took a loooooong bathe, on the aircon and went straight to bed.
oOo. my blanket and pillows and everything on my bed is cosy cosy COSY.
LaughOutLoud.
n i slept from 9am to 1.30pm. (alot? no, im still so tired when i woke up)
mame forced me to eat lunch. she practically dig me out of bed lahh.. then she yakyakyak..
ohmygosh. definitely nort music to my ears, NOT.
i seriously have no idea what i ate for lunch. dun bother recalling anw, cos i really dont remb.
ogod. m i suffering some sort of illness or something? i don remb!
then continued to slp at 2pm.
mame screamed me out of bed(again) at 7pm.
walau. i sleep SOoOoooOo little only can.
ogosh, im tired again. hahaha.

has tuition tmr. ssssssssssssSsSSssssians.
mayb i can fake sick and lie to mame that the lunch she bought me todae is BAD, so i got diaberra. can?
hmm. forget it, i'll go.

2006-09-21T05:26:00.000-07:00

21sep'2oo6
wednesdae.
RELIEF.

OHMYGOD.
todae is the last paper for me, the GEO student.
haha. jealous much? POA peeps. =P
but indeed felt so relieved lahh. its like a bloody burden off my shoulders.
i don have to wake up from my nap thinking of studying after dinner, and yet i don wan to.
then i'll be like...fighting with the lazy demon within me or something.
but, well...e lazy demon sort of win ytd night. and..the night bfore and bfore that too...
okae! that's not really the point isnt it?
hahas. the point is that PRELIEMS IS OOOOOVVVEER!
prelims is history!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
i so love after exams periods lah!
so now, all i have got to do is forgot bout the past, the goner, the prelims and the bloody difficult papers... and look forward!
which means the O's.
okae, forget bout looking forward. i shall b off to bathe and BED!

toodles!
goodluck to POA peeps and amaths people for tmr paper kae!
(its prelims anyway)
=P

2006-09-19T20:57:00.000-07:00

pirates pirates pirates pirates PIRATES!
johnny depp johnny depp johnny depp johnny depp JOHNNY DEPP!!
i adore pirates of the carribean.
i adore pirates and
i ADORE captain jack sparrow!
weet~
okae. pardon me for my sudden pirate madness.
i just cant get em out of my mind! haha.
they ought to be loved by everyone.
now, story up next(:

mysterious you (part eight)
looking at her unconscious in my arms, i felt a spang of anger.
with her and also at myself. and many more that she does not speak of.
why happened to her that locks her up so tightly? to this extent of physical and mentally torture.
i stood on the other side of door, looking at her as she dance.
she dances beautifully, the best i've ever seen.
but something was missing, the smile of confidence and happiness.
every dancer ought to have that smile, it makes the dance perfect.
but where's hers? standing outside watching for so long, i still didn't get to see it.
i guess neither has she.
yet, such a shock i had when i saw her collapsed to the ground. as if she had given up, she didn't get up from the fall.
she just lie there, staring at her reflection in the mirror. she starts to cry and covered her ears, her actions filled with so much pain.
i hestitated to minding this business which completely isn't mine. should i?
suddenly, she got up and started dancing again.
she dances with lots of energy. every step and every turn seems to dance out an emotion of something...im not sure of what it is.
yet i indeed was relieved and thought that she had recovered. and that was just a moment of blue she had. until i realised something weird.
she wasn't looking at the mirror, like she used to before the collapsed. she just kept on dancing and dancing yet she didn't look at how she dances.
its like... she's afraid. but of what is she afraid of?
as i watched her dance, my shadow pulls longer and stretches farther out. the sun has starts to set and another hour had passed, she...hasn't stopped.
i guess i was to involved in her dancing i totally forgot of the time. whao, time did flies.
bad new is, she should stop right now or else i don't think she cant take it anymore!
damnit! why isn't she stopping? she's torturing herself!
and before i knew it, i slammed the studio door open and hugged her from behind without a second thought. all i know is to stop her from more dancing, to prevent more energy from flowing out of her or she really will collapse.
i was so overwhelmed with anger, i shouted at her," stop it! stop dancing! you are killing yourself!" i tightened my arms around her wet body and felt her weakening. oh god, she really is a stupid girl without any knowledge of self caring.
yet she has the cheek to take care of those spray kittens back at the park, she's over ambitious.
i felt my internal organs all squashed out dry of anger and soaked in fear when i see her faint in my arms.
"anastasia!" oh god, she'll definitely be punished for this when she wakes up.
stupid girl!

2006-09-17T20:00:00.000-07:00

just come bac from sch.
woot! another paper gone, yeah!
haha. heres part seven(:

mysterious you (part seven)
silly girl, moron! who do you think you are?
hahaha. you are just a nobody, a spoilt brat.
you will never get into the limespot if you don't have your weathly dad.

im in the dance studio, alone.
tsk. of course im alone, im always alone. what am i thinking?
silly me. haha.
even blasting the music didnt help.
even the non stop dancing didn't help.
"AH!" i collapsed onto the wooden ground, i can't take it anymore!
cupping my ears with my hands, i can still hear them.
those lies, those shrilling laughter, those insults...
she's arrogant, so selfish!
"stop it! shut up!" i slammed my hands on the waxed floor, feeling the burning pain spreading along my palms. but i don't care, the pain didn't help anyway.
who does she thinks she is? a spoilt brat and a bully thats who! hahaha!
glaring at myself in the mirrors that dominates the whole four walls of the room, i saw the helpless girl. that weak and helpless girl five years ago.
no! no...im not her! im not her!
who do you think you are? who do you think you are?
we got close to you is for your dad's money, not for you, you silly moron!
you are so stupid to believe what we said. WE LIED! WE LIED!
i shook my head so hard i felt dizzy but i didn't stop.
i wanted to get those thoughts out of my mind, i want to forget them! all of them!
im not her anymore! really..im not.
the girl in the mirror starts to cry. tears started to roll down her cheeks, and dripped off her chin.
she starts to sob. her shoulders wobbled up and down, more tears flowed out of her blood shot eyes and sobs still escapes from her lips even though she bit them tight.
who is this girl? she looks so pathetic! so weak... helpless.
why is she looking back at me like that?
why is her eyes filled with mock as if accussing me for all her sorrows? i did nothing!
slowly, her lips moved. she spoke with much accusing," i am you, anastasia. don't you remember me?" she jeered. tears are still rolling down her cheeks, no sign of stopping.
i shook my head as i looked back at her. "no, i am not you. I AM NOT!"
slamming my hand on the floor, i got up and starting to dance.
i spinned and leaped and turned.
i danced so long, i am exhausted. but i can't stop, my legs didn't. it continues to dance as the music repeated itself over again and again.
i dare not look into the mirror, i fear.
as minutes ticked by and the sun starts to set from the sky and from the window, i am out of breathe. still, i danced out all the energy i've got. every last bit of them.
until i suddenly felt a pair of arms grabbed hold of me from the back and a familiar, yet angry voice shouted,"stop it! stop dancing! you are killing yourself!"
It's him. i realised that's the last thought i had before i blacked out.

2006-09-15T20:45:00.000-07:00

15'o92oo6
friday
happy, content, HAPPY!

happy bdae to me!!
todae is such a wonderful and happy dae(:
including e walking-in-the-rain-freezing-e-hell-out-of-me-but-laughing-still part.
thank u my dear friends for the joy u guys have given to me.
thats the best present i could ever got every yr.
well. except for e STUPID geography paper two part which my hand is almost tore from e writing.
LaughOutLoud.
okae. how bout another part of the story?
this part, is for myself. just a little something for e sixteen yr old me.

mysterious you (part six)
she's so soft, so small.
holding on to her in my arms, breathing in the frangance from her hair as the breeze blows by is just so... satisfying. i can hold onto her like this forever.
tightening my arms around her, i felt her stiffened back and she started to struggling free.
i won't let her. i've never felt like this before, and i yearns for more.
"don't move," i told her, yet she continues to. what a bad and not obedient girl, isn't she?
"don't move! there's a snake beside your feet, you don't want two holes on your ankle do you?" i lied. so what? everyone does. a little white lie certainly cause no harm.
it...didn't work. she struggled more, and she tried and bend over to spot the snake.
i thought she was afraid, tried to think of something to calm her down but she spoke before me.
"snake? where? i adores snakes! i've never ever before meet one!" she struggled and exclaimed in excitment. "hey, let go! i want to touch it! let go of me!"
what? whats wrong with this girl? she's not afraid, yet attracted to snakes?
"you are mad! all girls are suppose to be scared of snakes! even my father is afraid of them!" i can't hide my surprise. really, i couldn't.
she finally broke free from me and started searching the ground for a snake.
well, of course she found none. and...
"you bloody bastard! you lied didn't you?" she's angry.
i shrugged. i just don't know why girls always make a big deal out of liars, its really not much of a big deal. it's just something false that was said thats all, isn't it?
yet, she gave me a slap for that. a hard, painful slap right across my left cheek.
i ignored that hot, burning sensation slowly spreading out. i glared right into her equally as furious black eyes, and... are those rain droplets rolling down her cheeks?
"you lied to me! i hate it when people lie to me, it hurts more than those true insults that you people scold me. why can't people just tell the truth..."she shouted. both her tighened fists are turning white and her cheeks are blushed bright red with anger. those tears droplets seemed to have evaporated from those hot cheeks, oh god. she is really an easily aggitated person.
but something weird is stirring inside me. my stomach flips and turned, doing gymanstic turns right out of me and my mouth felt dry. i'm speechless except for looking at those salty droplets rolling out and off her.
then she turned and ran. away from here, away from me.
but as i closed my eyes and feel the breeze against my face, i knew that something, somewhere is no longer the same.

i've changed. everyone has.
everything is no longer the same, and never will.
as much as i despise them,
they are still memories. my memories, my past.
that, is something i hope to change that cant be.

okae! this is for me and my friends.
enjoy it people(:
I AM FREE FROM TICKET-SELLERS!
(huh! take that you stupid ez-link cards checker!)
NC16 MOVIES IS GONNA ROCK MY HOUSE DOWN!
oyea oyea oyea!
happyhappy bdae to sweet sixteen me(:

ciaos.

2006-09-13T00:21:00.000-07:00

who am i?
who really am i?
why dont even i know myself anymore?
this is wrong. everything is wrong.

mysterious you (part five)
"wha! you are a mad man, you really are!" i just can't believe it.
ten minutes ago, im in class happily munching my smarties but now im here at the middle of nowhere playing catching with a mad man.
yet, he continued chasing me around and round like merry go round around the merry go round.
i feel so much like bollywood. oh dear. this have got to stop!
"stop! what is it with you? i say stop!" there is a great possibilty that this guy is deaf.
im getting tired but i dare not stop. just look at his facial expression, you'd know why.
he must be a recrination of some murderer. is he going to kill me?
oh god. im really out of breathe, my stamina is never good to be honest.
just as i was thinking, a large hand grabbing my elbow and jerk me backwards.
i remember my backbones crashing into a hard yet warm wall, ouch pain please.
can you believe it? he's so...rough to a lady like me! he's definitely not a gentleman.
i must spread this news to the whole school and let those stupid girl ambirers of his to wake up.
as another hand secured his grip around my waist, i thought.. provided i get out of here alive.

my dear planet pluto,
how are you?
i know u are out there somewhere,
pls let me see you shine every night.
cos its only then i know,
i actually exists.

2006-09-07T20:25:00.000-07:00

wishes DO come true, u just have got to be sincere with wishing...
don't give up hope in wishing, don't give up hope in smiling.

mysterious you (part four)
i can't believe.
i simply just can't believe that she can ignore my existence when im just two inches away from her.
how could she? stupid girl, who does she thinks she is?
fancy ditching me yesterday and ignoring my presence now?
some lessons got to be taught to this girl.
and how kind i was to return her extremely embarrassing bagpack back to her,
you have no idea how much courage have i gathered just to hold on to that bagpack.
that pink... oh, never mind. forget it, i don't really want to talk about it right now. or ever.
yet this is what i got back in return? no way.
rooted behind her for so long, i know that i've attracted everyone's attention. everyone else but her.
can you believe it? even until now, she is still able to pretend.
i am a legend. she will not ignore the legend, she WILL NOT ignore me.
annoyed, i pulled off her earphones and her out of class by her collar.
"hey!" please, her struggling feels as if there was none. i can easily fling her to mars with jus one arm.
"hey, let go! i said let go!" well, at least she has a loud voice which almost blasted my ears.
rubbing my ears, i quickened my paces towards the park.
the park is a part of the school's property located at the farther back of the old building and is always deserted.
rumors says... who cares? trust me, i'll get a snapshot if a ghost of any sort does appear. stupid infant morons people without brains to believe in this kind of lame stories.
rumors, rumors, rumors, blahblahblah. you know, people don't call them rumors if they weren't lies.
rumors said i eats only one meal per day. please, one meal? my mom will thanks all kinds of gods if that day ever comes... so she doesnt have to cook up something for me to eat every another hour.
okay, thats not really the point isit?
just look at her, i bet she doesnt even eat.
but she does look alittle cute, sitting on one end of the see-saw with her cheeks puffed up in red and lower chin bloated.
she looks just like a pufferfish. an angry one, at this moment.
"What do you want? do you have any idea how much attention have you attracted back there?" she shouted.
okay, make that furious.
"so what?" i shrugged. "its not the first time attentions come to me, i mean well i m..."
"shut up with your boastful and vainness talk! you earn for attention so go get it, you shouldn't have pulled me along."
what? boastful and vainness? did she just... oh she didn't...
"i beg your pardon? what did you just said?"
look at she, just sitting there. not having the least of a thought that she had just put such a hard blow in my pride...
"why did you pull me here?"
"because i want a word of thanks"
"thats it? a word of thanks, you pulled me from the other end of the school by my collar and attracted so much attention on the way here just for a thank you?!"
oo, pufferfish. haha. "as well as sorry for ignoring me back in your class, you ought to feel shameful."
"i should because?"
"because you happened to be given kindness by the only legend of the entire school but yet you took this for granted."
"i didn't ask for the return of my bagpack."
"what? how could you..."
"neither do i care if you are the school's legend or not, you are just a spoilt brat who can't last a day without the limespot."
"why you little..."
"you are so haughty and boastful that you are not bother with whatever that happens around you except for yourself. self centered useless man."
okay, that's it. she can start phoning heaven for a reservation, she should be there shortly.

between you, between me. choose one.
who do you love more?
give yourself up, you are noble.
give me up, you are selfish.

shall end now, shouldn't i?
happy birthday, lilin!!
must stay cheerful!
i adore those sweet smile of yours there(jealousjealous), and you have got to relax to achieve that.
follow the flow, not against it.
sometimes, it works better that wae(:

2006-09-04T06:40:00.000-07:00

steve irwin, i adore you!
you are my idol.
please rest in peace, please dont b sad.
you will be remember for an eternity.

ohmygod.
jesus, jesus pls bless him and his family.
pls reduce those pain in his wife and children's hearts.
but let him still be loved and remember but nort saddened by his family.
but don't let me felt so sad for him.
pls bless his family, let them nort cry.
he is a good man who cares for those animals for real.
amen.

i cried for u steve irwin even thou u may nort noe me.
but at least at the other end of the ocean, may u noe that there's someone out there who still adores you.
my cousin n i shall remember u always.
hope u left with no pain,
hope u left with no regrets of any sort for u work ur favourite job.

2006-09-02T21:09:00.000-07:00

u used to say, everydae.
we would always be this way, flying angels lifing high.

mysterious you (part three)
i've always been wanting to ask this question.
what will you do if someone walks right up to you and said,
"from now on, you are mine. you shall obey whatever that i say."
i mean... what the f. okays, lets not get aggitated and starts scolding vulgarities shall we?
because it so happens... well actually i would say..
okay. it happened on me.
would you try to feel my shock?
its like, you went to a baseball game and the ball flew out of range and just smack right in your face while you are eating icecream about a thousand yards away from where ever that ball flew from.
right. haha. don't laugh!
its wasnt really a funny joke is it? and what worse, that guy is my school's...
u know, legend. LEGEND. thats a very strong word, must i say.
all i can remember is me running all the way home.
i ran so fast, im not even sure if i'd knocked into mrs. James(she's my neighbour next door who cooks awelsome curry).
okay, thats not really the point is it?
the point is. i ran so fast, so fast... i completely forgotten my backpack.
-.-

so i had to go to school the next day, empty handed.
no one notices. in fact, i don't even think if any one would even notice if i skipped an entire semster of classes.
mom did ask about school nowadays being so stress-free. not a need for backpacks anymore she says disapproving.
i know she's trying to be sacarstic. she always does in the morning. she's not exactly a morning person, although she does that something in the noon too, or maybe during dinnertime...
oh, what the hell. forget it, dad didn't even looked up from his morning papers. again.
class is noisy as i entered. everyone is busying doing their own stuff.
but mostly talking. yak-yak-yak.
i went to my seat and took out my sketch book. yak-yak-yak.
then i squeezed e earphones in my ears and tune up the metallic music.
there! this ought to shut all unauthorised sounds out of me.
yak-yak-yak. YAK-YAK-hahahaha-YAK.
oh god. these bunch of mindless 21st century apes...
i stopped when i felt a tap on my shoulder. who?
i haven't even got the slightest chance to turned around when something slammed right in front of me.
thud!
what the f. hey, wait.. this is a bagpack. yes, it is!
and look at that tag with italic wordings on it, spelling... A..N..A..
oh gosh! its mine bagpack, it must be.
that means.. strangely as you might as. a gush of extremely chilly wind blew past me, stiffened my spine a bit. well, just a bit.
i do not want to turn around. so i just pretend that my bagpack had just popped out of the thin air and starting to unzip it, pouring everything out. hoping that 'someone' would just... go away.
i opened my history textbook and tried to concentrate on the lycris of my song.
then i reached open my pack of smarties and started munching at it...
oh god. he's not going away is it? oh god.
never mind. i would just continue with whatever im doing. yes, i would.
so, i continue munching happily on my smarties when suddenly, he pulled off my earphones.
may i repeat? HE PULLED OFF MY EARPHONES.
what the f.

okae. shall end here todae(:
but have u peeps realised something?
my 'talking' in the story sounds awful similar to spohia kin...erm. someone.
yah. that i mus sincercely apologised for i jus finished reading her bk this morning,
so there is some similarities between us.
haha. hope her fans do nort mind!
shall stop here.

_________________________________________

2006-09-02T00:02:00.000-07:00

i dont even noe me. my heart, its heading.
then, how can you?

i've jus realised something,
everytime i saw junshen's frens, i would start cursing.
cursing em that they will nort have any wifes, steads or sex lifes.
repeated.
is that bad? owell.
like i ever care?
im evil anw. i jus hope that my curses will come true one dae.
but i do nida wait long right?
haha.
mayb i shld jus curse em met with a car accident or something...
that shld b faster.
n i'll jus have to check e monday news, n pretend to weep.
but deep inside, im laughing.
hais. e sun will be shinning so bright then.

m i evil or m i kind?
confusion.
i do nort wan to noe e answer.

2006-08-30T00:13:00.000-07:00

i have finally finished my foilo and artefact!
wheeEee... freedom is near! i can feel it.
laughoutloud.

okaes. storytime again!
but have got to be fast cos e author wana go catch a nice nap.
(MCramps is killer)

mysterious you (part two)
dont look at me.
i earns to be invisble, keep my desire to find.

everyone knows me. popular as m i.
im a legend. haha.
met her after winning back champion for the school's debate team.
they sae its all bcos of me, the credits ought to be mine.
please, they always sae that.
'they' are people that i can never remember, they are nort from my world.
an annoying bunch of unshimmering passerbys.
but for once, i didnt classified her under 'they'. weird.
i didn't noticed her until something brushed pass my ankle, then laughter rang out behind me.
she...isn't beautiful. only average should i sae.
still, there she is. seemed to be glowing like the moon inside the deepness of e dark forest.
weird. for i thought only outstanding people like me can beam, able to shimmer n shine.
i know that im outstanding. regardless appearances, studies, personalities.. i've got everything.
mom say im perfect. everyone says so.
but she isn't. i may be harsh but she doesn't have the appearances at all, how possibly could she shine?
i wondered.
i felt myself walking up and stood right in front of where she kneeled.
"hey you." arrogantly, i crossed my arms and said.
she froze for a second before lifting her head up. her eyes, watered with pureness and laughter.
so beautiful.
tired of looking down at her, i grabbed her by her shoulders and pulled her up instead.
such an easy task must i sae, of her lightness, of course.
her mouth opened slightly with shock, a little white kitten still cuddled cosily in her arms.
"don't daydream when im talking to you, dont you have any manners?" i scolded her.
although i've no idea why i did, my temper usually aren't that bad. at least, i seemed so.
"y..yes?" i can still remember the slightest of fear found in her eyes as she darted off my eye contact.
that, just pissed me off.
grabbing her lightly by her chin, forced her eyes to meet with mine.
"listen, you are mine from now on. you shall obey whatever i sae."
the little kitten meowed and jumped out of her cuddle as she... trembles.

i shimmers, i shines.
i never like any other planets except for mars.
scientists are always up there. doing this, testing that..
i found so much smiliarites between us.
me and mars.
i wondered how much have they discovered? how much do they know?
about the both of us.
me and my mars.

okaes. that's all for todae.
enjoy people(:
gdnight, rest well my dear PIRATES.

2006-08-26T21:36:00.000-07:00

storytime! is anyone up from another short, stupid, love, unromantic story?
stay tune(:

mysterious you (part one)
i am just an average girl.
average looks, average results, average personalities.
no talents have i got, except for a passion for dancing.
But my dancing ain't that good either, average as you call.
limelight is not on me whenever or where ever i m.
n quite frankly, i m used to it.
actually, never had being in the limelight crossed my mind before.
cos i m just an average girl with an average looks, results n personalities.
n i m satisfied with who i m now.

i've once meet a guy on my way home from school.
as i walked out of the alley, off to feed some strays by the park.
and there he was, standing so upright, staring out afar.
i knew who he is.
a popular boy from my school. good in both basketball and debating.
a legend ever said. and, a legend i can never reached for.
he's like the tip of a glowing splint, always lited.
its like.. if u ever placed him in a crowd, he will outshines all of e others.
the limespot, he is.
as a kitten meows its arched back around me, i realised its her.
mystery, its her name. i named it, although i've no idea why.
as i smiled, kneeled down n pat her tenderly, she meowed louder.
she's hungry, i can see.
i sat down by her side, watching her eat. mumbling to her softly, asking where is her siblings?
the answer is clear when two other black kittens popped out from a nearby bushes and came galloping towards me in high speed.
i laughed and cuddled them.
this is my average life, and i adores it.
i m satisfied, just to sit here with my cuddling kittens pack and spending my daes of dancing or watching the sun sets n e stars coming out.
i often tried to located planet pluto but it seems far n tiny. but its out there.

i m from a world no one notices. its like planet pluto, so far beyond reached.
looking at people from other planets passing their daily lifes, the walls are there.
the walls are there, yet so unseen.
invisble world, invisble walls, average me.

next time! ciaos.

2006-08-24T16:12:00.000-07:00

24 aug o6
thursdae.
corkedup.

noe what im corked up with?
emotions. all kinds of em.
happy, relief, worry, sad. pick one.
happy cos i've finallyfinally finished my artefact!
i still remb at e beginning of the year, mr liang sae that dnt will b very tough wk. n if we wana drop it, then drop it then.
i didnt. glad that i didnt too(:
foilo is only left with e bits n scraps. completing soon.

but right nw, i wana pray.
for a fren, for her artefact, foilo and confidence.
i wana pray for her panic to go awae. erase em n those doubts out of her mind.
instead, put in faith n believe that she can do it
pls give her much will, hope n believe to walk down the remaining six daes.
pls let her believe that she can n she will complete it.
pls let her felt much joy upon seeing her completed task in front of her.
n laugh out in tears of joy n relief instead of the doubts n sadness.
do wash awae her tears and give her strength.
show her that much concern, love n care will walk her through these six daes of storm.
pls let me be there for her when she fall, i'll pick her up n walk with her.
may god bless her in everything she does.
amen.

clear those tears, my dear fren.
put much faith in urself,
u can do it de(:
JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-20T00:36:00.000-07:00

oman.
took so long n finallyfinally found a skin i wanted.
in fact,
i adores it so very much!
laughoutloud.
n i realised tat im realy so crazy bout dance, dancing, dancer. watever.
jus e word dance gets me all nerves up n legs itch, excited!
oOoo. im mad.
im dancing mad. im soso very adoring dancing crazy mad.
haha. (im in such state tat im nort sure of wat i've said. dun care anw! ah-ha!)
anw, boyboy is realy looking more dashing by every wk.
simply stunning, shld i sae.
tat groomer is just SO right.
hairblower has just got to be e most goodie goodie invention ever made for dogs hair in the history of grooming dogs hair!
how good is that?
hahas.
my son is so stunning, my son is so charming, my son is my son.
my son, my love, my life, my fun!

okaes. im nort only dance crazy, im oso doggy mad too(:
but wth, COS I LIKE IT!
sumack people, boyboy nids a brand new cuddling kiss from mame, me!

2006-08-18T03:18:00.000-07:00

告诉你一个故事。。。

从前从前在一个海边的沙滩上，
躺了一位光着身体女子的。
那位女子是被海浪给冲上岸的，
但她已经死了。
有一位路人走过，
看了一眼摇摇头就走掉了。
可怜的女子还躺在那里，没人帮，没人管。
后来，又一位路人走过。
他看见了那位女子，
觉得她很可怜便拿了一片大树叶盖好女子的裸体，
过后摇摇头便走了。
时间一分一秒的流失，早上变中午在是傍晚的来临。
女子还是躺在同样的地方，
身上除了那一片叶子以外，连一点温度都没有。
一个人孤孤单单的躺在原地，下山的太阳把她的身影拉的好长好长。
在最后一丝阳光快要消失的时候，
一位男人往那女子的方向散步而来。
当他看到那位女子时，
他的眼眶里浮现了泪光，伤心与不舍充满了他的心。
小心翼翼的，他把他身上的衣服给脱下，并且轻手轻脚地帮那女子给穿上。
在以身护住那子，抱着她一起看她生命中最后的西洋。
那是一对父妻的前世故事。
在今生，那女子成了丈夫来还前世的人情债。
而那好心的路人反而成了她的妻子，一辈子让她疼，让她养。

好多好多时候我们以为我们遇到了。我们命中的另一半
但，在分手的那一刻才知道他并不是。
他只是那位帮我们盖了一片叶子的路人。
债，使终要还的。
所以当你在哭泣一段失去的爱情时，要记住。
债，你已还了。
等待着，那个陪着你看完了西洋的好心人。
因为他才是你生命里的那一半。
好好的爱他，珍惜他。好好的用你的一辈子去还那人情债吧。

2006-08-18T02:54:00.000-07:00

SO angry.
SO angry.
okaes, allow me to flood e rest of my pages with screams bcos im nowhere near e graveyard.
my fear of ppl thinking tat someone is being murdered n called 999 which... sort of happened bfore.

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okaes. im NORT feeling any better.
gtg.
off to ta xiao ren.
hope they will never ever have any steads, wives or any sex lifes at all.
bloody ji ko bei.

2006-08-11T16:14:00.000-07:00

oman.
its 4.57am nw, n i dun feel so good.
my nose is running, my eyes are sore n my throat realy hurts.
m i sick?
darn these stupid batercia or watever hu made me feel so bad right nw.

2006-08-10T00:07:00.000-07:00

10aug'2oo6
thursday
FAMILY DAEeEeEE.
xD

noe why that smiley face has a cross for eyes?
cos im half dead.
jus came bac frm jurong east sports complex.
i m so damn beat.
went with parents n sistas.
jiejie was in binki(oOoooOo..) big boobs woman lahh she.
*jealousjealous*
owth. its still fun anw..
slacking in the lazy pool, playing in wave pool n e slide!
oOo, longlong slides. made me giddy cos turning n turning..
dunnoe wher is north, south, east, west when i finally came out.
much laughters in the air(:
frm everyone, including everyone!
but im like.... damn suey lahh.
onvmind, will tell lilin n people on fridae(oh! BIG DAE).
haha. one button lady getting engaged tmr nehhx.

ate wu xiang xia bing for lunch.
heard papa sae that e place would b demolished in a yr time,
so devasted lahh.
e wu xiang xia bing is THE BEST, n i'll miss it):
dunnoe if e stall will move somewher else or jus stopped forever,
WHA! DOOOOON WAAAAAAN!
anw, tired liao.
shall go dreaming in my dreamland.
or go play checkers with mr. zhou(i like calling him zhou gonggong betta)
hope i would win again, or else he will gt mad n kick me outa e game(he is a sore loser)
dun tell him!
LaughOutLoud.

2006-08-09T23:53:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
LOVE YA EVER SO MUCH,
U RULE!
MY DEAR COUNTRY!
hahas.
its reallyreally fun todae.
its singapore's bdae! (:
anw,
woke up damn early(which i mentally is nort willing to) as always to go tuition.
tuition was BORING as usual.
pls lahh, how interesting can maths be for a straight F9 student?
:P laughoutloud.
after tuition, met lilin to exchange foilo(and storybks! yeay bookiebookies, come to mama!).
but really, e foilo was my main motive in mind. REALLY!
hehes. erm.. then..
oyahh. then came home, eat lunch with cousins.
n they were toking bout tau huey this, tau huey there.. so we went to eat tau huey after that.
at round peace center there..
hahas. funny, isnt it? its my craving, nort me. REALLY!
after e delicious tau huey meal, came home prepare to sleep..
but mame called me n said,'' lets go sheena's house swimming!''
wth. so tired liao, still go swimming!? but i didnt swim in e end.
hahas.
popo cook soso much nice stuffs for dinner n i ate bopiah for...erm. teabreak?
yah, thats right. teabreak. so its nort my fault, its e bopiah n e food so nice..
i didnt really wan to eat de. REALLY!
by the time i reached home at round 11, i crashed on my bed n went into silent mode.
(note:whenever im in this mode, DO NOT interrupt. it is a very sacret art.)

goodnight, Osingapore people!
happyhappy birth DAY! (:

2006-08-05T00:30:00.000-07:00

o6aug'o6
saturday.
I WANT A BABY!

okae, i reached sch at 9.01 am,
okae, the dnt wkshop closed at one,
okae, i packed up n stop wk at twelve,
o.kae! i didnt finish my aretfact....... -.-
omg.
im so un-trustable can.
n now my bad self is actually scolding my bad self for being bad.
confused? yah, me too.

anw, went kelly hse jus nw!
n saw e c.u.t.e little babe girl (double !)
she is SO cute.
soft, n smells so nice. (haha, y do i sound so much like a chi goh bei?)
nvmind, e point is she is SO CUTE!
played with her for much time, then she poo-ed.
n me, kelly n kelly jiejie(as in her sister) sat in front of her n watched her poo-ing.
haha. wat a...unique experience lahh.
i've NEVER seen anyone poo-ed before. (except for BB, of cos)
tat feeling is so...unique, but nort disgusting at all.
more of humorous n interesting. fun(:
babes really are miracles existing, tat means we ALL are miracles.
so miracles does exists, it jus depends on how we look at it.
some people sae: hmp! i dont believe in miracles, i only believe in myself.
but plurease lahh, u are a miracle stupid. so u believe in miracles.
hahas. weird logic? oh nvmind, thats me anw.
if i dun have a weird logic, that im nort me-me.
LaughOutLoud.s

gd news: my aretfact is finishing soon! and im starting e foilo tmr, so im gonna be damn busy.
im a busy woman,
im a busy woman,
im a busy woman. hahaha.

错错错，一路走来是谁错？

2006-08-04T05:43:00.000-07:00

o5 aug 2oo6
friday
pissssssedoff.

okaes. currently in a reallyreally bad mood.
everything wasnt going well..
nort at all. freak
wth. fuck can.
e aretfact is finally completing!
yeah.
but there are problems occuring lahh.
BIG problems.
hais. so sianss sia..
so i was so stressout im desperately in need of sugar. glucose, watever.
have much craving for timeout n kitkat, so headed to hougang point.
junshen treated me with bubbletea n sauages!
laughoutloud. den i felt muchmuch better..
sugar, glucose(watever) reallyseriously helps.
:D owell.
tmr mustmustmustmust finish e aretfact. yahh, diedie must.
tasks to complete aretfact
- glue gear to leg-support section
- secure e cam to the gear(its still moving up and down, SO ANNOYING)
- drill holes, screw and secure nails in foot portion.
- glue e spring to acrylic
- glue e leg-support section to the top foot portion
- do e circuit(!)
okaes... that, shld be all. (maybe?)
dunnoe lahh, but must finish by tmr.
den maybe start foilo on tmr or sunday, btw foilo is 60marks.
O.o wth!?
hahahas. anything lahh... im gonna pull this thru. (:
JIAYOU LOR DNT PEOPLE!
which includes,
LILIN, XIAOFEN, KELLY, JUNSHEN, RAYMOND, SHAWN, REDZWAN, ISWAN, HENGSHENG, DARYL...n erm. whoever i felt out their names.
:P so nort sincerce hoh? LOL.
deadline: 25aug'2oo6

oll hills aboard! a big storm is coming up, we're sailing thru it.
fasten yea seatbelts mates! (:
we can do this.

2006-08-01T06:43:00.000-07:00

im going back.
but i dont know if i wan to go back,
or m i jus going back.
confusion, hahas.
there ought to b such a peaceful n happy place,
where frens are e most truthful,
but its nort.
i hate it when they starts whispering into each other's ears as i pass.
i hate it when i tried nort to hate them but cant.
cos im a christian.
but after all this yrs..i still cant.
im nort e most forgiving of all people, n i jus cant.
there...makes me feel safe. happy, warm.
there...makes me feel unwanted. too.
shld i go back?
can i stand their whisperings?
i do wanted to be close to Jesus, really do.
but letting go of hatred is nort a easy task,
rembing rembing those awful memories,
haunting me.
do they even know what they have cost of me?
who are they? standing there but instead of kindness, they spreaded pain, hurts n mean insults.
ironically.
m i going back? m i going back?

im a christian.
Jesus, im ur filial child.
n im lost, helpme.